This is really not our year. Kamuela lost out on 2 scholarships, our rent went up right before we moved in, Kamuela got his first speeding ticket which was $240 wasted, insurance went up so we lose $200 per month from Kamuela's paycheck (so he doesn't make enough to pay the rent), our finances are CRAZY, despite our best efforts to cut back and make "wiser" decisions, and today I lost one of my diamonds from my engagement ring. I totally cried. Kamuela said not to worry about it, it's just material, eventually we could replace it, but he doesn't understand what it means to me!
Everytime I wear it I remember back to that special time when we were dating and we were excited to get married and how he planned the BEST proposal I have ever heard of (still to this day) and all the hopes and dreams we had. But what makes it harder is that it seems as though there's just one wall after another. We're trying to be faithful and stay positive and I know that compared to a lot of other families we are well-off.
I shouldn't complain and should be thankful Kamuela is healthy and able to work and does work hard and we aren't in debt and have some savings. But I determined a long time ago that we would save as much as possible so we could eventually own a house, and little by little that possibility is pushed further away.
Ka'ihi's other favourite movie is Finding Nemo, and since we watch it almost every day, Dory's song gets stuck in my head. "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming swimming, what do we do we swiiiiiiiiiiiiiim, yes we looooooove to swim" it's really cute. Anyway it's quite appropriate in our situation. We just have to keep swimming and trying and moving forward and hoping and praying and doing our best and trust in the Lord.
And not cover myself with sackcloth and ashes because I lost my diamond.
P.S. I just realized that Dory's song also has another lesson: We looooove to swim. We should enjoy our journey even though it may be fueled by stress, don't be in a rush to get to the end, we might miss great opportunities along the way.
Waaaaaahhhh!!! I'm so sad for you about your ring!! What a bummer!! Plus all the other recent disappointments...Man, when it rains it pours!
ReplyDeleteBut I like that you are trying to look for the positive. You post from the day before should help (with the list of all the things you LOVE about your new place.
And speaking from experience, I know that somehow everything will work out (ie replaced diamond, eventually owning a home, etc, etc...)
Love you all. XOXO